IM IN A BETTER MOOD AND MY EYES ARE WIDE OPEN NOW. I HAVE TO SAY THAT CERTAIN SITUATIONS THAT ARE GOING ON RIGHT NOW IM DISAPPOINTED WITH. THE FRIENDS ISSUE IS RESOLVED..........BOTTOM LINE I DONT NEED THEM IN MY LIFE IF THEY ARE GOING TO BE THE NEGATIVE FORCE THAT BRINGS ME DOWN. JUST GETTING A FEEL FOR PEOPLE FROM MY PAST NOW, I FEEL LIKE THEY HAVE CHANGED. ITS LIKE THIS PERSON WAS ALWAYS SO HUMBLE AND QUICK TO HELP SOMEONE OR GIVE THEIR LAST TO ANYONE IN NEED. NOW THAT VERY PERSON TO ME SEEMS RUDE AND EVERY WORD IS NEGATIVE TOWARD PEOPLE OR LOOKING AS IF THEY ARE HIGH ON A PEDESTAL TO "US" SMALL SHALLOW PEOPLE BELOW. IT HURTS REAL BAD BECAUSE I NEVER WOULD HAVE THOUGHT THIS PERSON WOULD EVER CHANGE. THIS PERSON WAS MY OUTLET AND I COULD COUNT ON THEM BUT, NOW WHEN I FEEL LIKE I WONT SUPPORT OR MOTIVATION SEEMS MORE THAN ANYTHING I GET BROKEN DOWN BY THIS PERSON OR MADE TO FEEL LESS OF A PERSON BECAUSE OF MY CHOICES IN LIFE. PEOPLE ARE JUDGING MY LIFE AND HOW I LIVE AND THINK THEY KNOW EVERYTHING THAT IS GOING ON....WHEN THEY DONT!!!! THEY ASSUME THEY HAVE ALL THE ANSWERS NOW AND EVERYTHING THEY SAY IS RIGHT REGARDLESS THE SITUATION. IM TOTALLY SHOCKED OF THIS SITUATION BUT I DONT KNOW THIS NEW PERSON..........THIS PERSON IS ARROGANT, COCKY, CONCEITED, NOT SUPPORTIVE AS THEY WOULD USUALLY BE, SELFISH AND HURTFUL, I DONT LIKE IT!!!!!
I HAVE TO SIT BACK AND REALIZE THIS PERSON HAS BRANCHED OFF INTO A NEW WORLD & LIFE AND IM NOT INCLUDED IN IT.......ONLY IN CERTAIN AREAS OR WHERE THEY TRY TO MAKE ME FIT IN WHEN ITS OBVIOUS I REALLY DONT ANYMORE. AND TO THEM AS I SEE IT IM NOT WORTHY OF THEM AND OTHERS MORE ON THEIR LEVEL WHO HAVE COME INTO THEIR LIVES. IM JUST A GIRL TRYNA MODEL NOTHING MORE......ITS HOW I FEEL WHEN IM AROUND THIS PERSON NOW. ITS OKAY THOUGH....................TRUST ME ITS OKAY. CAUSE NO MATTER WHERE I MAKE IT TO IN LIFE......I WILL ALWAYS REMAIN HUMBLE AND THANKFUL FOR MY BLESSINGS. AND STILL TREAT EVERYONE IN MY LIFE WITH LOVE AND RESPECT.
PEACE.......HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE
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