YOUR EGO.........

ITS FUNNY HOW PEOPLE ASSUME THEY HAVE A HOLD ON YOU. LIKE THEY THA SHIT AND THEY PUT IN WORK AND GOT YOU WHIPPED OVA EITHER PUSSY OR DICK (NOT GONNA SUGA COAT IT) "IT IS WHAT IT IS"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FOR SOMEONE TO HAVE THOSE TYPE OF FEELINGS OR THOUGHTS AND THINK THATS THEIR GRASP ON A FEMALE/MALE THEY ARE SADLY MISTAKEN. FOR ONE YOU ASSUME YOUR STROKE AND ATTENTION TO DETAIL GOT YOU IN A PLUSH POSITION TO DO WHATEVER THE FUCK YOU WANNA DO AND STILL THE PERSON YOU GOT SPRUNG OR WHIPPED GONNA TAKE SHIT AND DEAL TO KEEP THAT GOOD SHIT. NEGRO PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TRUST THERE IS A NEW DUDE/FEMALE THAT MIGHT HAVE A DEEPER STROKE THAN YOU AND HOLD HIS/HER OWN AND GO WHERE YOU NEVER WENT.........BUT THAT IS SOMETHING YOU WOULD PROBABLY NEVER KNOW UNLESS THE MALE/FEMALE YOU DEAL WITH THE TYPE TO THROUGH IT IN YOUR FACE. IF THEY ARE THE TYPE TO PROTECT YOUR FEELINGS AND NEVER BREAK IT DOWN AND BUST YO BUBBLE.........YOU REMAIN WITH A EGO AND BRAG ON SHIT YOU CAN DO AND DONE.........WHEN REALITY IS HE/SHE IS LAUGHING THEY ASS OFF ON THE INSIDE AND LOVING EVERY MOMENT OF THE NEW FOUND "GRIND" OF THE REPLACEMENT THAT VENTURED INTO A TERRITORY YOU FAILED TO REACH.



REALITY IS A MUTHA FUCKA AINT IT!!!!!!!!!! ;)

MY THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS

I DESIGNED THIS GRAPHIC BUT ALSO ADDED MY FEELINGS.





ITS JUST HOW I FEEL RIGHT NOW WITH LOOKING BACK TO WHERE I WAS REALIZING WHERE I AM RIGHT NOW. THE FEELING I HAVE ABOUT MY LIFE AND BEING FOCUSED RIGHT NOW CANT EVEN BE DESCRIBED BUT, IM HAPPIER THAN I HAVE EVER BEEN. WEIRD TO SAY CONSIDERING IVE LOST FRIENDS, SINGLE, AND DONT REALLY HAVE A SOCIAL LIFE AS MANY MAY THINK I DO. BUT BESIDES ALL OF THAT AT THIS POINT I FEEL AMAZING, UNSTOPPABLE, HAPPY, AND LIKE I CAN DO SO MANY THINGS......AND I WILL!!!!!!!!!! ITS LIKE THE PAST LET DOWNS AND NEGATIVE THINGS TOOK ME TO A LOW POINT AND NOW IM PAST ALL OF IT AND A WHOLE NEW IMPROVED PERSON...............ALL I HAVE TO SAY IS WATCH OUT!!!!!

AND TO ALL THOSE HATAS "CHECK MY MUTHA FUCKIN STATS".............CAUSE IM RISING TO ANOTHER LEVEL YOU BEST BELIEVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DANGEROUS MUSICK VIDEO FEATURING HI-DEF

Dangerous Musick Ft. Probz - No Food from City On Lock on Vimeo.


I HAVE TO SAY THIS WAS A NEW EXPERIENCE FOR ME BUT, EVERYONE IN NEW YORK MADE ME FEEL SO COMFORTABLE THAT IT ENDED UP BEING AN GREAT EXPERIENCE FOR ME.

SHOUTOUT TO DANGER, KREAM , CHECKMATE, THE REAL PACK, GUTTA, KEELO AND EVERYONE ELSE INVOLVED ON THIS PROJECT.

THE VIDEO TURNED OUT GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HI-DEF UPDATES

WOW!!! SORRY ITS BEEN A WHILE! ALOT GOING ON!! BUT IM GOING TO GET BACK ON TRACK AND GET BACK TO BLOGGING!!!!

TOMORROW I WILL BE LIVE IN THEABOVEALLSHOW LOG ON AND LISTEN BY GOING TO ITSCHECKMATEHATAS.COM AND DOWNLOAD THE RADIO STATION. I WILL ALSO BE DOING A DROP FOR A ARTIST OUT OF QUEENS NEW YORK (G-MONEY) FOR HIS UPCOMING MIXTAPE RELEASE AS WELL AS MY PICTURE BEING ON THE COVER OF HIS MIXTAPE. THIS WEEKEND I WILL BE DOING ONE OF THE HOTTEST PHOTO SHOOTS IVE EVER DONE...........WONT GIVE TOO MANY DETAILS BUT ITS FOR CHECKMATES CD COVER FOR HIS VALENTINES DAY MIXTAPE RELEASE. ALL I CAN SAY IS HOTT, SEXY, AND SEDUCTIVE FOR VALENTINES DAY LADIES AND GENTLEMEN. THIS SATURDAY JANUARY 31ST I WILL BE ATTENDING DJ HELLA YELLA'S BACK TO SCHOOL PARTY @ THE ALL NEW CLUB...CLUB 8-BALL. NEXT WEEKEND HI-DEF HAS BEEN INVITED TO ATTEND A PARTY HOSTED BY OMEGA PSI PHI FRATERNITY OF UNIVERSITY OF TEXAS AT AUSTIN (2ND ANNUAL PAJAMALOOSA) WHICH WILL ALSO BE AT CLUB 8-BALL FRIDAY FEB. 6TH, 2009 AND DJ WILL BE DJ HELLA YELLA. VALENTINES WEEKEND I WILL BE IN ATLANTA GEORGIA........FROM 2/12-2/15 SCHEDULED TO DO PROMO'S AT A RADIO STATION IN ATLANTA & MACON GEORGIA, HOST A PARTY VALENTINES DAY, MEET & GREET WITH RECORD LABELS IN ATL. IM VERY EXCITED FOR THIS EXPERIENCE AND I CANT WAIT. ON FEB 7TH IN HOUSTON, TEXAS I HAVE BEEN INVITED TO ATTEND A SWISHA HOUSE PARTY AT CLUB RIO.


I WILL BE DOING A VIDEO BLOG SOMETIME TODAY OR TOMORROW.

JUST WANTED TO DROP A LINE TO UPDATE EVERYONE ON HI-DEF AND THINGS I HAVE GOING ON. I AM CURRENTLY SCHEDULED TO BE IN A HAIR SHOW IN SAN ANTONIO, TEXAS (NEX LEVEL MLK WEEKEND HAIR BATTLE) ITS EXCITING FOR ME AS THIS WILL BE MY FIRST TIME DOING RUNWAY. WE PRACTICE, PRACTICE, PRACTICE SO I CANT WAIT TO SEE THE FINAL ROUTINE.

HAVE A PHOTO SHOOT COMING UP AND I PROMISE YOU ITS GOING TO BE EXTRA HOTT!!!!!!!!!! NEW ATTITUDE, POSES, HAIR, JUST ME BUT ON FIRE!!!!!!!!! BEEN WORKING ON A FEW THINGS AND REALLY PUTTING MY HEART AND SOUL IN THIS ONE.

IM FOCUSED AND PREPARED FOR MAKING CHANGES IN MY LIFE. REALIZING I HAVE TO JUST LET SOME PEOPLE GO BECAUSE THEY ARE KEEPING ME DOWN AND HURTING ME. I DONT NEED THAT IN MY LIFE AT THIS POINT. I KNOW EVERYONE IS SET ON "NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS" BUT THIS IS "MY LIFE RESOLUTION".......REMEMBER ALWAYS "GOD" IS #1 IN MY LIFE THEN MY FAMILY, KEEPING THINGS POSITIVE, REMAIN FOCUSED ON MY FUTURE, DISMISS NEGATIVE/HURTFUL PEOPLE AUTOMATICALLY, NOT FOCUS ON FINDING THE RIGHT GUY....LETTING LOVE/MR RIGHT FIND ME, ENJOYING LIFE, SMILING ON A DAILY EVEN WHEN THINGS ARE GOING WRONG, AND JUST GIVING MY ALL TO FOLLOW MY DREAM.

I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST OF THE BEST NEW YEARS.........PRAY THAT EVERYONE IS SAFE AND SURROUNDED BY PEOPLE THEY LOVE. "2009" IS A NEW START FOR ME TO DO THINGS BIGGER AND BETTER THAN "2008"...............AND THE MOTTO REMAINS:

PEOPLE TO WEAK TO FOLLOW THEIR OWN DREAMS, WILL ALWAYS TRY TO FIND A WAY TO DISCOURAGE YOURS...LIVING MY LIFE FOR ME!

HAPPY NEW YEARS!

JUST WANTED TO WISH EVERYONE A HAPPY AND BLESSED HOLIDAY SEASON. IM THANKFUL TO EVERYONE IN MY LIFE. AND I KNOW THE HOLIDAYS ARE A TIME WHERE ALL FAMILIES GET TOGETHER AND EXCHANGE GIFTS BUT, SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE THE CONCEPT AND ACTUAL REAL MEANING OF CHRISTMAS IS KIND OF OVERLOOKED. THIS CHRISTMAS I HAVE DECIDED NOT TO RECEIVE GIFTS BUT, FIND SOMEONE THAT NEEDS A BLESSING AT THIS TIME. AND IN DEALING WITH PERSONAL SITUATIONS THAT KIND OF BROUGHT MY SPIRITS DOWN THIS MAKES ME FEEL SOOOOOOOO GOOD.

WELL AGAIN TO YOU ALL I WISH YOU THE BEST HOLIDAY AND PRAY FOR ALL IN MY FAMILY, MY FRIENDS, AND EVERYONE THAT IS IN NEED OF PRAYER.

MERRY CHRISTMAS
& HAPPY NEW YEAR

THINGS ARE NOT THE SAME...........

IM IN A BETTER MOOD AND MY EYES ARE WIDE OPEN NOW. I HAVE TO SAY THAT CERTAIN SITUATIONS THAT ARE GOING ON RIGHT NOW IM DISAPPOINTED WITH. THE FRIENDS ISSUE IS RESOLVED..........BOTTOM LINE I DONT NEED THEM IN MY LIFE IF THEY ARE GOING TO BE THE NEGATIVE FORCE THAT BRINGS ME DOWN. JUST GETTING A FEEL FOR PEOPLE FROM MY PAST NOW, I FEEL LIKE THEY HAVE CHANGED. ITS LIKE THIS PERSON WAS ALWAYS SO HUMBLE AND QUICK TO HELP SOMEONE OR GIVE THEIR LAST TO ANYONE IN NEED. NOW THAT VERY PERSON TO ME SEEMS RUDE AND EVERY WORD IS NEGATIVE TOWARD PEOPLE OR LOOKING AS IF THEY ARE HIGH ON A PEDESTAL TO "US" SMALL SHALLOW PEOPLE BELOW. IT HURTS REAL BAD BECAUSE I NEVER WOULD HAVE THOUGHT THIS PERSON WOULD EVER CHANGE. THIS PERSON WAS MY OUTLET AND I COULD COUNT ON THEM BUT, NOW WHEN I FEEL LIKE I WONT SUPPORT OR MOTIVATION SEEMS MORE THAN ANYTHING I GET BROKEN DOWN BY THIS PERSON OR MADE TO FEEL LESS OF A PERSON BECAUSE OF MY CHOICES IN LIFE. PEOPLE ARE JUDGING MY LIFE AND HOW I LIVE AND THINK THEY KNOW EVERYTHING THAT IS GOING ON....WHEN THEY DONT!!!! THEY ASSUME THEY HAVE ALL THE ANSWERS NOW AND EVERYTHING THEY SAY IS RIGHT REGARDLESS THE SITUATION. IM TOTALLY SHOCKED OF THIS SITUATION BUT I DONT KNOW THIS NEW PERSON..........THIS PERSON IS ARROGANT, COCKY, CONCEITED, NOT SUPPORTIVE AS THEY WOULD USUALLY BE, SELFISH AND HURTFUL, I DONT LIKE IT!!!!!

I HAVE TO SIT BACK AND REALIZE THIS PERSON HAS BRANCHED OFF INTO A NEW WORLD & LIFE AND IM NOT INCLUDED IN IT.......ONLY IN CERTAIN AREAS OR WHERE THEY TRY TO MAKE ME FIT IN WHEN ITS OBVIOUS I REALLY DONT ANYMORE. AND TO THEM AS I SEE IT IM NOT WORTHY OF THEM AND OTHERS MORE ON THEIR LEVEL WHO HAVE COME INTO THEIR LIVES. IM JUST A GIRL TRYNA MODEL NOTHING MORE......ITS HOW I FEEL WHEN IM AROUND THIS PERSON NOW. ITS OKAY THOUGH....................TRUST ME ITS OKAY. CAUSE NO MATTER WHERE I MAKE IT TO IN LIFE......I WILL ALWAYS REMAIN HUMBLE AND THANKFUL FOR MY BLESSINGS. AND STILL TREAT EVERYONE IN MY LIFE WITH LOVE AND RESPECT.

PEACE.......HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE

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